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What Worlds Have I Seen Through Blinded Eyes

what worlds have i seen through blinded eyes!
what corrupt and debauched dreams have i foregone
in my search for greater truth!
such truth as was sought by the ancients,
those children of history,
those maggots of time…
such truth as has never existed and,
doubtless, never will.
i have chased visions
and believed the lies of god.

i have dreamed of love-
abstract in the light
yet as real as my pain
in the deepest night.
i have dreamed of vengeance
and revisited enemies
in my jealous, zealous mind.
i am no saint;
i am sinner through and through;
denying my evil, yet
embracing it in my darkest hour.
those who love me,
i will tear apart-
those who despise me,
i will fight until my final breath.

and
in the end, i shall realize
that i knew neither love nor hate,
and spend my eternity
in the cold in-between.